Waking up at three in the afternoon after not being able to sleep until three thirty in the morning is a problem.
Lethargy, despair, and a cup of coffee greet most of the unemployed in the morning – myself included.
I’ve noticed that the job boards are playing the same songs. There hasn’t been any real change in the posting and the so-called additions of jobs are usually in fields that are so specific (with all employers begging for experience) that even if I wanted to apply I wouldn’t get the job.
I don’t have the experience and I’m likely to never get it at the rate we’re going. But that’s OK, I don’t exactly want to be a registered nurse (I don’t think I can stick people with needles).
So, scouring the job boards, applying for jobs that interest me plus any jobs that I think I can get is what compromises most of my days.
I’m not getting any bites.
A friend of mine said that I should set my goal for companies that I want to work for. All the companies I want to work for are either not hiring or I’ve applied to them and they’re simply not hiring me. This friend also hit upon something I should think about, what is it that I want to do.
Well, that’s the problem. I’m not sure. I keep waiting for the answer to hit me and then I just delay it saying ‘well when I grow up’.
I’m already grown up. There is no more waiting.
As a kid I wanted to be everything.
I wanted to a cop. A teacher. An Ad Exec. A dancer. A singer. An Actress. A writer (I’m still struggling with this one). A book store owner. A bartender. A QVC model (please don’t ask). A baker.
I think you get the point.
As I got older, I realized that I just wanted to be successful and I wanted to be that ever elusive thing called happy. I never wanted to be rich but I did want to be comfortable. I wanted to be interested in my job and I wanted to work in a place that fosters its people.
That’s all I really want. To do something that is interesting and that I’ll be happy in. As long as I can be creative, as long as the environment is warm and easy-going and as long as the work means something then sign me up.
As we all know, how companies hire is a straight up mystery to me. I’m qualified, intelligent and college educated. I have everything they want and yet I have nothing.
So, I might not know what I want to be when I grow up but I do know that I am good at jobs. All I want is a chance.
And also, the location of where my small spoons keep disappearing to.